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Wednesday, August 30, 2006/ 9:57 PM just another day haha. i know i know. didn't update for quite some time. and apologies sq. didn't entertain you. haha. i'm busy actually. no time to update. everytime after school, will reach home late and then there's homework to be done. after homework's done, i will be totally furnished. haa. no energy to even on my laptop. so yeah. hope that explains it. hmm. its 4 days. can't afford to explain in detail what happened on these 4 days. my entry will be so damn long la. so i'll just summarise them briefly. on sunday nothing important or significant happened. just normal weekends, completing homeworks, revising paper works, family bonding and all those stuff. haa. my parents are out the whole day, so me and my brother had the whole house to ourselves. actually supposed to be doing amaths, but i took this time to watch dvd with my small brother. haha. so funny la. watched garfield 2. garfield's so fat! haha. just like my small lil brother. chubby and plump. but he's cute, yeah i admit. love my brother. we're so close. don't know what its like without him. that time when he was out for camp, i missed him so much la. no one to joke with, no one to pinch, and no one to smack. xD. haa. i'm not cruel! it's just the way we are together! hehe. then when he returned, i hugged him like no tomorrow la! haha. dramatic. when garfield's finished, we proceeded to do our homework. if my dad found out we did nothing he will be like shouting and lecturing at us. yeah. did works for the whole night. and prepared for what's up the next day. monday. the first day of the week. usually on this day, i will be very lethargic. and i mean very. hmm. had normal school lessons and i tell you it was boring. there was physics remedial on that day. and it was practical. personally, it sucks. hate it. i prefer chem practical but also not that much. hate physics practical partly because that day was so fucking hot. i was perspiring the whole lesson la. then second. cannot balance the stupid weight and block. i was so angry. then to add to it, zihao was so irritating. lol. i'm not sure whether its some kind of entertainment for me to calm me down or to make me even worse. but well, he irritates me. he keep on disturbing me until i cannot control it. i shouted at him and gave him a pissed face. he remained silent and asked me to relax. lol. maybe i scared him. haha. thinking of it, its funny. but it only last for a while cos after that he made me laugh. joker. then xinmin also came to our table to help out A BIT. haa. she just balanced the weight and 'adviced' zihao not to make me mad. haha. yea. then went to entertainment with rose and ayu. tiring yet funny day. tuesday. boring as ever. plus tiring too. went to school half-heartedly. don't know why. reached school, usual lessons. and today i felt so neglected. yes the friendship thingy. i was so easily left out. and worse of all, my best friend also leave me la! so sad. i think think think, one of my other friend must be the cause of it. let person's name be g. well, everything was okay. i was close to my best friend and g was also one of my friends. so yeah. we hang out together, laughing and chit-chat everytime. but then when g became closer to my best friend, i tend to be the one left out. its like when they are talking, i won't know what they are talking about. it's like g's a friend stealer. but also i can't blame my best friend. maybe she/he wasn't in the mood and she/he got other problems to think of. so maybe its not her/his fault. but g is also sometimes very unrealistic. sometimes, i'm being bang seh-ed. haiz. i don't know. i wonder what are friends. are they just some kind of companion where when you're around, they will be with you but when you're not around, they simply just walk away? or better still, are they someone where you can talk to now but later no more? or are they those whom you can trust and sure that they will be with you always? really am confused. had english test today. paper 1. for goodness sake, i can't finish section (b). situational writing. i think i wrote not bad for section (a). put in all my feelings into it just like how mr tham asked to apply. but section (b) was a set-back. didn't managed to complete my last paragraph. i did how it was suppose to be done. but i've no time for the conclusion part. hmm. oh wells. let God decides. hope i did alright. and oh my god. my summary was a piece of shyt. not a piece. i think a whole pile of dung. it was so bad la. mr ang said i was very vague and my sentence were not clear. hmm. never mind. learn from your mistakes. hope to do better next time round. then after english remedial which was the test, didn't know where to go. sat down with zihao and 4c's scube and watch them eat. haa. was so hungry. but didn't eat. then asked them where they're heading and what they're doing next. yeah. you guessed it. play wwe cards again. Zzz. zihao said that this game was started by non-other than mr monkey a.k.a. mr tan yu xue. haaa. then 4b's scube came and the game started. was a bit left out but kor was there. so it was okay. but then of coz didn't stay there for long. jie came by and waved goodbye to kor and gang. followed her to the library again. haa. well, that's where it started. hmm. fiqah can't go with us cos her dad was at home. so left with me, ayu and jie. reached there, sat at the quiet room. ayu made a hell lot of noise. haha. very funny. then her father came to the library to meet them. so yeah. had to go our separate ways. but before that, i gave jie a kiss. then. hmm. i asked her to give me a kiss in return. but she doesn't want to. at first i was shocked la. then i give the act sad face. but then she just went off without saying anything. i was like so sad la! wa. don't know how to describe the situation. went home with an inverted u-shape mouth and moody face. haiz. was so depressed. first it was the friends thingy and now this. what a damn fucking bad day. jie's like my one and only. she's there for me whenever i needed her. but she just left me there without saying at least a good bye. how worse can it get?! why is everything falling apart?! once i was so happy and because of that, this is how its suppose to go? i got no comments on that day. i stayed solemn and remained quite throughout the night on that day. didn't even have the slightest mood to touch school stuff. and yea. finally the day. wednesday. hmm. school. woke up quite early today by myself! how great. yeah. then went school as usual except with a sad face. because of yesterday. compre mock test. again. then amaths. khairul and i decided to sit in front cos he cannot see what mrs wong wrote on the board. he sat with sean and me with justin. justin was super extremely lame la. haa. at least made me laugh a few times. hmm. i told mai what happened and why i'm sad. she understood as she too experienced before how i feel. haiz. she asked me too calm down. yeah. then told azri,xinmin and zihao too. azri just a brief one and zihao nothing. lol. i just said to him i'm sad. yeah. emaths test after school. it was okay. and i got 7 marks gone i think. around there. not bad. and oh yea. received back my result slip. it was fairly alright except for my fucking ch. i got an f9 a very very very low f9. can be considered as i12 or j13. lol. lame. but ch was super bad la. counted, excluding ch, L1R5 19 and L1R4-15. hmm. cannot be proud. it's not o level. it's not even a major exam. and lol. i haven show it to my parents yet. maybe during the holidays but definitely not now! i'll be dead meat. haa. o.O . my mum's beside me. quick change topic! okay. spamming. more and more. so that she can't see. hope you have patience. lol. okay. she can't read now. yeah. now currently online in msn. haa. talking to my non-other than xinmin, one of my smardhx. haa. she on her webcam and she's so like an idiot la. hahaha. xD. to xinmin: you asked me to write one! lol. haha. at first i asked her to act like a ghost cos my small bro was beside me. i wanted to scre him. then you know what she did? haha. she placed a blue cloth on her head. hahha. damn funny la! so stupid. and my brother was scared! hahaha. xinmin's a ghost when there's a cloth of any sort on her head. then showed me her songs. cool. then she sang with the songs. her face look so constipated. haha. funny. made me laugh throughout the talk. lucky i don't have webcam, if not.. lol. at least she made me laugh instead of staying in my room, sulking. haiz. i still feel so sad la. don't know what's happening. talked to kor just now in school about ame stuff. actually wanted to tell him but then, i don't want to disturb him. so yeah. it's kept to myself. ( but you all know liao, so not to myself already). hmm. looking through her messages makes me even more sad. first time we didn't message each other. yeah. i'll try not to be so down tomorrow cos it's teacher's day. hope everything goes well tomorrow especially what's related to the friendship-thingy. a.k.a. not bang seh-ed. okay. gonna talk to xinmin a.k.a entertainer and lamer through msn. haha. and sorrie for not updating for quite some time. hope you guys understand! enjoy! and erm, there seems to be a problem with my font colour. so i used white. |
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